A beautiful sunrise from our house this morning, and a snow day off from school. What a great way to start a 36th birthday!
I keep thinking I should get something written on the blog to keep everyone posted on how things are going, but I don't really have anything to report. Which is good, and also confirming that people really only put things on the internet when it's bad news.
Every time someone asks me how I'm doing, I'm not really sure how to respond. I can't really tell if it's a regular "how are you" like everyone dishes out, or if it's a heart felt, lowered voice, "how are you really?" So here it is: Either way, I'm great! I have bad days just like everyone else, but the bad days are rare and far between. I have headaches that I'm still trying to figure out, but I don't really relate that to cancer stuff. My migraine issues are genetic, my mom had them all the time from food allergies and hormones. I have had them for the last 2 years, and the recent menopausal adventure has made them a bit more tricky to navigate. I still see it as something I can get figured out if I pay closer attention to what I'm eating and drinking. I have had to miss some school days, but I think I'm getting it figured out and those should be minimal as well.
Other than headaches, I'm perfectly healthy. I feel nothing in my lung, I visualize those suckers shrinking all the time. I see them kind of like the witch in the Wizard of Oz, "I'm shrinking!" I play with the kids, I go to work, I exercise, I do chores around the house, I fill out Christmas card addresses, I'm normal.
There are moments in my day sometimes that stop me in my tracks. I don't know if you've noticed this or not, but cancer is everywhere. It gets mentioned on TV, it's in Facebook posts, it's at the grocery store asking if you want to donate to "the cause." That gets old, but it has less and less of an impact as time goes on.
I will continue to believe that I am healthy, that I will be here for a very long time, that medications and healthy diets will work. The more people that agree with me, the better I feel. I appreciate it when people ask me how I am out of concern, but know that I am great!
