So on the drug bottles that they give me, there are bright yellow warning labels. I just read them yesterday. On one of them it says "may cause headache." I've had a headache for like three days. When I get headaches, I get sick, like nauseous sick. I'm an idiot. Stopped taking that one, no headache today. Not nauseous now, we'll see how I feel when I get home. This isn't rocket science Mo, figure it out, its bright yellow!
Ovary is clear. There's some fibroid that has calcified. Dr. Lee says this is "no problem." Dr. Lee says chemo is "no problem." Dr. Lee's no problem and my no problem are very different things. Bottom line, its not cancer, I don't care what it is. So, after not making it through Monday, I took Tuesday off and sent Mr. Sime back in. Wednesday I tried again, and made it through the day (with a nap in the middle), but was exhausted by the time I got home. Brent went to pick up anti-nausea #3, I puked once, took it, and have felt good since. I did make it through the school day, which is good, but I felt crappy and wasn't able to see Max & Cannon much. That's not ok with me. I'm at school today (Thursday) and we'll see how it goes. If the next couple of days leave me exhausted by the time I get home, then we'll have to do something different. I may talk to the boss about working part time or something, if that's an option. Obviously my first priority is Max & Cannon. There's no way I'm not going to see them at all for three months.
I'm mainly frustrated that I can't do what I want to do. I want to be able to teach, be a mom, coach. I feel like some shell of myself, I can only do parts of each. If everything goes according to schedule, then chemo will be over December 19th. That's three months from tomorrow. I'll have radiation after that, but that shouldn't make me vomit. I'm focusing on December 19th and hopefully feeling normal again. :)
5 comments:
Glad you test came back with good results! You said it "if it isn't cancer you don't care what it is"!
Tired is a big part of the therapy! Your good cells fast growing are struggling to replace themselves and therefore you get run down! December 19th is the focus! We are continuing to think about and support the four of you!
Mo and Brent--
We're so glad to read your ovary is "unremarkable.." (Our imaginary duck down comforter must be working). :-)
If you can do half days, that would be GREAT!!! I'm sure they will accommodate you. We will keep that in our thoughts and prayers, and just remember.....
"Go SLOW Mo--" One day at a time, and work can wait. After all, you have this great backup (thanks Terrance!!)..
Love, Nell and Randy
Yes, work can definitely wait... find a happy medium and spend your time with all of your boys. I think you're doing a great job - 3 months from today you'll be done with chemo!!
Can't wait to see you on Sunday!
Mo
Pretend you are talking to your best friend about your condition - what would you tell her to do. I think one of your friends already had the answer - Thank you Lauren.
Treat yourself like you would your best friend in this situation and use your support group.
Love
Aunt Linda
Hi Mo, It does get easier. I was shocked at how hard it was to lose my hair. It was coming out in clumps and I was tired of cleaning out the bathroom drain. We went camping on Memorial Day weekend and My dear husband cut it off for me. I have a couple more hats I could send you. They have elastic in the band to the hat doesn't actually touch you bare skin. I have two I am keeping but I found I liked handkerchiefs better. I also only lost the hair in front of my ears and on top. shannon
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