I showed up, they tested my blood, white blood cell count was good, but I have the makings of a sinus infection. I felt horrible while I was there, the entire right side of my face was pounding, nose running, eye watering, flattering and beautiful. :) Anyway, because of this, the oncologist was concerned that they'd give me the chemo and I'd go home feeling even worse. So, its delayed to next Friday. My first reaction was to cry. I'm really getting tired of crying in public, I never used to be a crier. Anyway, I came home, took over the counter drugs, slept and am feeling much more rational now. Amazing how much of a difference that whole sleep factor makes. I didn't want to have to move back my end date of December 19th, but what are you going to do? If I look at the every other week from next Friday, then that sucks for Thanksgiving and Christmas because I would have treatment the day after both. However, the oncologist said I can move back another one when Thanksgiving gets here if that's important to me. It is, so that was releiving.
I don't know what the date is that I'll be done now, and I'm trying to not figure it out. I need to learn that me trying to plan what's going to happen in my future as far as my health isn't going to work out. I can't get stuck on dates, I'll be disappointed every time.
I'm frustrated, but for the most part, I'm excited to have another week of feeling good. Once this sinus business goes away, I can have another week to feel human.
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Hang in there Mo. You are doing great and it never hurts to cry every once in awhile. If I was you I would be crying all the time. Crying people get sympathy and you deserve a lot of tender loving care right now. Hopefully you can enjoy the weekend with Debbie now that you are feeling well. Thinking about you lots!
Mo said,"I can't get stuck on dates, I'll be disappointed every time."
Bob Says, "In 40 years it will not matter"!
Remember the cancer rollercoaster?!
You "aint" going to be off it for awhile! You are learning! Good job!
That sucks about the delay, but just focus on getting better and enjoy the weekend!! :)
Love you!
We're glad you can move some of your dates around the holidays... At least there is a few silver clouds for now!!
We were north of Belleview this weekend, and one of our group wanted to go to that yuppie-yuppie-yuppie mall in Belleview. They had a store called "the art of shaving"... that had NOTHING but shaving equipment. AND, they offered a "Head Shave" for only $35.00!! (We thought of you, but knew you wouldn't be getting up here any time soon).
But wait, there's more..... We were walking around and saw this brown cap... that was frayed and worn looking, and had a fake crown on the top. Going with the 'princess wannabe' theme, I wanted to check it out--- IT COST $56 DOLLARS!!!
(Of course... you're WORTH it!!) But I know the practical side of you wouldn't have liked it anyway :-)
So keep taking those naps, and know that there's some yuppie assistance out there that you can get if you want it.
I Love it "Yuppie assistance"! There is a new twist for cancer therapy! You support network is outstanding! We all love you and yours!
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