I tell people this blog thing is pretty therapeutic. I don't know if its the venting part of things, or the fact that I can put anything on here and I have this huge support group of people telling me its perfect. Hmmm... I could get used to this. I told Brent that my inner princess was coming out. He didn't seem to think it had far to go...
I have felt great again this weekend. It seems to be about a week (maybe slightly less) that I feel crummy. So I guess I get a week on and a week off. Six more weeks of feeling crummy (is that like the groundhog?) doesn't sound appealing, but what're you going to do? Brent pointed out that its not like we have a choice in the matter. Its just how it has to be. So, ok. Sitting and whining about it hasn't gotten me far in the past, so just deal with it and accept it and focus on the good weeks.
A coworker asked me what I learned this week. (Totally teacher-y) I like this because it gives me something else to think about, but also it reminds me of Grandma Madge. She took care of Amos & I for a week one time, and everyday was "what did you learn today?" Annoying at the time, but cool in retrospect, and totally Grandma. I'm obviously not one to research any of the cancer stuff that most people do, or the drugs they inject in me. However, I learned the first round to stop doing too much when I'm not ready. Easier said than done for me. This time I think I better figured out the nausea (still got sick, but improving), and like I said last time, focus on tomorrow, because it will be better. The Saturday after "treatment" is the worst day, so especially that day. Open the blinds, force myself to pretend I'm actually among the living, and wait for Sunday. :)
Right now, I feel great, and I'm excited to have this week to feel good. I go into over-achiever mode this week to try to catch up from last week. Nightime book reading with little dudes goes from five or ten minutes to thirty, grading actually gets done, and Brent doesn't have to clean everything. I know, don't overdo it, relax, enjoy your kids, I know, I will, I promise!
4 comments:
It is amazing, "the human condition" we are so adjustable! Good for you Mo! You have so many people praying , thinking, pulling for you etc! How could you not "adjust"? Also you are such an amazing person! We all have been blessed to know you and yours!
This one is for Brent.... Yes, Mo might be a "princess wannabe...." but you---are DEFINITELY a Prince!! I can think of few people who could display the "grace under fire" that you do through all of this. I love your "to the point" comments and philosophy throughout this difficult time. You and Mo make SUCH a great team!!! So, kudos to "Your Majesties" :-) and we're thinking of you both!!
Love, N and R
Boy do I agree with Nell and Randy! YES!
That definitely sounds like Brent. It is what it is so accept it and move on. Also sounds like something my grandpa would have said. I myself do not understand completely rational people, but I'm glad you've got such a great one there with you. Give him a hug for me. Go beavs.
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