Stay the course

The nurse called with the scan results. They're not the greatest results ever, but I feel pretty ok with it.

The size of the tumor has grown "verrrry minimally." It was 9.6 mm and is now 10.4 mm. When this whole gig started it was 11mm, so we're still slightly smaller than it used to be. I meet with Dr. Lee next Thursday to see what she has to say, but the nurse said at this point we're staying the course.

I didn't freak out when the nurse called, which is a nice change. Her news didn't stress me out, however over the last few days I find myself again wondering if I should change my diet again. Should I cut this out, should I do that differently, should I meditate more… blegh. I do strongly dislike how my brain does that. I was finally getting to the point where I felt like I was on a good path, I wasn't thinking about it all the time, I could be "normal" and now that stupid little tiny sucker is slightly bigger. Ugh.

There is a variability in scan results from time to time. For this reason Dr. Lee has told me that millimeter changes don't really concern her. The last change was a millimeter bigger, and now this one is another millimeter… maybe that will cause her stress. There were a couple of other smaller dudes in there also; they are unchanged which is good news.

Sometimes I wish I knew more about how all these technical machines work, and sometimes I'm glad I don't. The kids have had a cough (Cannon had a little pneumonia), and I've had a cough off and on. It's minimal, but a couple of days before the scan I was coughing fairly regularly. I want that to be the reason that it looks bigger. I want her to tell me that it looks bigger because of a virus, but I don't even know if that's likely or possible. The cough is now better by the way, in case you were concerned that I was coughing up a lung. I'm not. It's 99% gone.

In other exciting news my kidney stone is bigger. That painful sucker. I have a referral to go see a urologist to have them possibly zap it with sound waves and break it into pieces. Those pieces then get flushed out in a supposedly less painful manner… yeeeeee!

Overall, I really feel like I got good news. It seems strange, but I feel like I'm in a really good spot. At one point I asked Dr. Lee what if the drug doesn't work. She just said "then we try another one, there are tons of them out there." And more and more are being developed all the time. Even if this news means we try something else, I'm ok with that. Things are still looking pretty good.